Don't blame ppl from leaving, blame yourself for making them leave. The way say it's like your putting the blame on your friends. But, why can't you realize that you push them away instead. You told them how you appreciate them but you only use words. You say you dont want them leave, did you even try holding on to them from leaving? If you really don't want them to leave you can try and hold on to them, no? Even if In the end they choose to leave, you have no choice at least you have tried. But you dint, so you have no rights to say that they leave you.
I wonder how can you act like nothing happened. You should know you caused it all. You say you don't like ppl to assume how you feel, but god damn it, you assumed things that I did not do. And I hated but accused. If you dont like ppl assume you yourself dont assume things. Because of you, I've got hurt again and become more mean that I don't wanted to be.
You have broke the trust I had put in you despite many things. You spread things about me. All along I've tried to make others to not make things worse for you so I was helping behind you. You make me regret, regret for trying my best helping you. I know you did not asked me to, but I can't leave you like that. You can say I pity you but I tried to be close with you, but I think I can't. I'm tired of you. Tired of being with you, tired of your mood swings (you show all over the face and let us suffer), tired of trying, tired trying to advice you because you are so stubborn you won't listen. One word, tired.
I'm venting here. If you read this, this is my blog I can say what I want, but I wont state your name.
If you come to me for help, I still will help no matter what.
Sometimes I can't make myself hate the person when they can talk to me so normal.
Actually, I should be glad you are like that. :] because you are like that, I'm okay again with her.
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