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Hey. Make me hate you, maybe not hate, make me dislike you please. Don't come close to me. Don't say things like you know me. Don't. If possible try to not help me unless I asked. I don't want to go close to you. Not at all. I cannot forgive nor can I forget the pain that you've caused me. I find that im hypocrite to act okay in front of you but the fact im mad at you. Maybe you moved on but once I get Hurt or get angry by the person. I will remember even if years passed. Just like how I remembered for those previous broken friendship I've had. Really. You made me regret for being there for you when the true I don't think you even cared that I was once there for you, supporting you even if I were to get in trouble... I regretted... Never had I felt like this before.. All I can hope is for Os to end so I won't really be seeing you. Maybe that'll will make the wound in my Heart to heal faster.. Thanks for all the good things that you have done for me. And sorry for going in your life that cause you and me to suffer. I guess we're meant to be like the way we are now. It's better. Probably.

Nevertheless, I still believe her. I realize. When what she say from her mouth I will believe. Idk why. There are times I'm really angry at her. Because of her attitude, walking off on me and all. But still can't bring myself to really don't like her. I'm a hypocrite. There are times where I talk behind her, but when with her all those thoughts vanished. I admit what I did unless I forget. I have the guts to admit. If you ask me personally, anything, I will say the truth. I don't like to lie when people ask me things personally. Unless I'm not really sure.


If anyone I know read this. Go ahead. :] I'm not sure if you will be a person that show ppl what I blog and make them think I'm a bad person. I don't care anymore. I've had enough trying my very best to be a good person to be fair. One of my friend tell me that I no need to force myself, no need to try to hard because I'm just human, everyone is not perfect or are you. Dont be too hard on yourself. That make me think. Was I trying to be perfect all along? Idk. I can say I'm trying to be a fair person like my horoscope. Hoping to be balance, be equilibrium.