Azri and my birthday celebration/bash

Today is Simin birthday though. Heeh. Happy birthday. ^^

Hmm, was actually having bad mood in the morning.. Cause of my bag so heavy and I went to take the cake. I missed the stop end up I walk back to Wcpark. Hehe. Silly me...

Hmm, the celebration only have me, jac, Azri, San, BOH, LF and farhan. Even though so few ppl its still quite fun! That sandy trick me! She tell me not to bring shirt and she won't really throw anything at me. Then end up..... She was the first to throw the water bomb at me! Drenched!!! And its a little painful too! Ahaha!! We started throw each other throw flour! I bought the wrong flour that say. Heheh. All the 3 girl attack me!!!!! I'm totally drench and covered with flour! Tsk Tsk!! They hide my shirt and replace it with a pink shirt! No wonder say no need bring shirt! Hahah!

After that we went to mac to have a drink and slack there for a while. Then we bus back home. Took quite a few or alot? Picture while otw back. Hehe! I've fun. Though it's more to Azri birthday since tomorrow it's his birthday.

Thanks. Thank you. :] I'm glad we 3 are back again. I hope there wont be next time we are separated again. That's why I keep want 3 person picture.

Random

Hey. Make me hate you, maybe not hate, make me dislike you please. Don't come close to me. Don't say things like you know me. Don't. If possible try to not help me unless I asked. I don't want to go close to you. Not at all. I cannot forgive nor can I forget the pain that you've caused me. I find that im hypocrite to act okay in front of you but the fact im mad at you. Maybe you moved on but once I get Hurt or get angry by the person. I will remember even if years passed. Just like how I remembered for those previous broken friendship I've had. Really. You made me regret for being there for you when the true I don't think you even cared that I was once there for you, supporting you even if I were to get in trouble... I regretted... Never had I felt like this before.. All I can hope is for Os to end so I won't really be seeing you. Maybe that'll will make the wound in my Heart to heal faster.. Thanks for all the good things that you have done for me. And sorry for going in your life that cause you and me to suffer. I guess we're meant to be like the way we are now. It's better. Probably.

Nevertheless, I still believe her. I realize. When what she say from her mouth I will believe. Idk why. There are times I'm really angry at her. Because of her attitude, walking off on me and all. But still can't bring myself to really don't like her. I'm a hypocrite. There are times where I talk behind her, but when with her all those thoughts vanished. I admit what I did unless I forget. I have the guts to admit. If you ask me personally, anything, I will say the truth. I don't like to lie when people ask me things personally. Unless I'm not really sure.


If anyone I know read this. Go ahead. :] I'm not sure if you will be a person that show ppl what I blog and make them think I'm a bad person. I don't care anymore. I've had enough trying my very best to be a good person to be fair. One of my friend tell me that I no need to force myself, no need to try to hard because I'm just human, everyone is not perfect or are you. Dont be too hard on yourself. That make me think. Was I trying to be perfect all along? Idk. I can say I'm trying to be a fair person like my horoscope. Hoping to be balance, be equilibrium.

Find your action unreasonable. No longer trying to think in your shoe

Don't blame ppl from leaving, blame yourself for making them leave. The way say it's like your putting the blame on your friends. But, why can't you realize that you push them away instead. You told them how you appreciate them but you only use words. You say you dont want them leave, did you even try holding on to them from leaving? If you really don't want them to leave you can try and hold on to them, no? Even if In the end they choose to leave, you have no choice at least you have tried. But you dint, so you have no rights to say that they leave you.

I wonder how can you act like nothing happened. You should know you caused it all. You say you don't like ppl to assume how you feel, but god damn it, you assumed things that I did not do. And I hated but accused. If you dont like ppl assume you yourself dont assume things. Because of you, I've got hurt again and become more mean that I don't wanted to be.

You have broke the trust I had put in you despite many things. You spread things about me. All along I've tried to make others to not make things worse for you so I was helping behind you. You make me regret, regret for trying my best helping you. I know you did not asked me to, but I can't leave you like that. You can say I pity you but I tried to be close with you, but I think I can't. I'm tired of you. Tired of being with you, tired of your mood swings (you show all over the face and let us suffer), tired of trying, tired trying to advice you because you are so stubborn you won't listen. One word, tired.

I'm venting here. If you read this, this is my blog I can say what I want, but I wont state your name.

If you come to me for help, I still will help no matter what.

Sometimes I can't make myself hate the person when they can talk to me so normal.

Actually, I should be glad you are like that. :] because you are like that, I'm okay again with her.