Friday is the day today.

Mmm, today is meet the parent session day. Talk about English,maths,my result and my behavior? I say that I don't have the discipline to make myself study. Mrs yap ask me do a time table for June hols to study and what's app her. Doing a time table is definitely not my type.. I wanted to study but my body takes over my mind. My result is really...... 2 pass only.. Oh well.. *Sigh*

Went home after that and slack till time to go tuition ~ michelle is coming over later to GM and maybe lenice and Valerie(cousins). Tomorrow gonna go skating with them. Excited. ^^

Intensive Chinese lesson for 4 days.

Hmm, today is a fine day. To me it's kinda cooling day if everyday was like that I'll be quite good. :] well. Had intensive Chinese. It was ratter relax because the teacher don't bother much if you are not disturbing the class. You can sleep, can listen to music. I like.
Tomorrow there'll be a Chinese exam hope I don't sleep on it. :]

Hmm, sitting with sandy is makes me feel so comfy, she'll ask you things, tell you things about anything she thinks off. Hehe. It's great when I can talk to my Gf! And it'll be much greaterrr I I could say things that can make he smile or laugh! I'd like to make the ones I love smile or laugh. Makes me really happy and don't wanna leave the person. :]

Weekends! Feels like holiday! (Y)

Yesterday morning 10am tui was canceled than went for 12pm chem tui and after that went home then realized I forgot about going for breakfast with ZulikAh. She forgot about it as well oh well next time than plan again. :]

Reach home Xiao Gu decided to bring my and michelle go JCUBE to skate. ^^ Heheh. Quite interested.
Hmm, I should say it was fun,funny,scary,tiring,painful,determine thing. Hehe. Funny behind michelle fall twice and because I almost fall but I dint. Scary because scared to fall! Painful cause of the boots? Shoe? Determine because I wanna learn how to skate than can enjoy it! So altogether= tiring & fun!!
Look forward for the next Saturday that I can go skate with another two of my cousin,lenice and Valerie of cause Michelle coming as well. Can see how their reaction will be!! Haha!

Went to eat than went home. The stickhouse ice cream at JCUBE is nice. The chocolate one "haochi" yum!

Today went to clementi mall to pei my pri friend buy shoe i wear the shirt that my aunt bought. Feel like its kinda revealing need to find like slinglet to wear inside. Then help gugu Mamie with the things that she bought by taking some of it back to her house at Jurong. Stay there for awhile then buy dinner and went home.

Shocked. Tiring.

Today in the middle of the night at around 2am + suddenly someone scream. It scare me. Very scary... My dad was surprise then he rush go see what happen and stepped until my leg. I wake up Liao but I was shocked and scared to go see. :X then for awhile I go see. It's my Xiao Gu on the floor, fall down, hit until the head, crying. I shocked. The scream really scare the hell out of me.. I so difficult to wake up then her one scream wake all the people in the house. Why fall down? - the like wash pigu that pipe burst the water spray out. My aunt hear something ten want go see then want in the light then step until the water and slipped never react fast then rub and injured until the hand and hit the hit on the floor. Then Er Gu and ah ma rub her head after that I go rub her hand then she realize Hand one also quite pain. Than after that we all go sleep. I can't sleep drag until 4am + then sleep then alarm ring at 5:45 but I lay on the bed until 6:20am + wake up. Then aunt all wake up le. Not enough sleep then feel tired. Brush teeth all this Le sit on sofa. Then for awhile go change to school u about to leave. Then my aunt say you don't go school ah pei me go see doctor. Then I called mrs yap tell her not going school. So, we went to clementi polyclinic. Only get few medicine and like cream to apply on the hand.
Then go buy things like tonic for ah ma and my bro and soyabean for my bro to drink. So went to cousin house. He that there cause Gu Gu Mamie taking care of him.

Reaach there eat lunch all this then decided to go imm shop. Xiaogu buy a lot clothes for me and bro. My bro really buy a lot! Buy from fox, giordano, cotton on. She buy slippers from fox and the clothes that I don't wear. Which mean like Girly. I not used to wearing that kind of clothes. >.
I've been traumatize... The scream very scary. It makes me feel insecure around the house...

This week. (exams)

Tuesday had maths & chem(not enough time) - acceptable
Wednesday had maths P2(not enough time) - difficult
Today had chem & phy p1(careless mistakes) - acceptable.
Tomorrow last paper... This is sad..

Exams week - (Y) awesomeness. I'm not sick of exams hmm enjoying it actually. Reasons? : some day can wake up late, recess about 1 hour or 45min, can go home early = awesome.

I no longer thinking of who I want to go with after school anymore. If I'm not invited then no point thinking haha. What am I babbling about. If people want me they'll asked. Therefore after school = go home. Unless sometimes go clementi eat or buy thing with clique members. Haha.

Love today. Test 1 hour then go home. I like ~ and I did not cab. Wohh! F&n tui, brain can't function.. Can't think well.. *dreamy* like to talk to boh boh like how the past we did. went buy stuff and home!
Keep having stomachache this few days... *sigh*

Mood like these days.

Had few exam papers. Social studies. ... *sigh* can't finish the paper... Stupid..

Yesterday 9:30 went to tution. Finally talk to boh boh! After tuition home then suddenly Jessica want go watch movie.asked zuk also. Then we went to vivo but dint watch movie, went to eat, slack around and shope around. Biught chocolate for michelle's b'day.Ate B&J ice cream like finally! But feel so dead to enjoy. After went home. On the way home bought bottle drinks. So tired... Reach home slack then bath and sleep.


Today had to wake up early... Earlier than I wake up for tuition.. Tired... Aunt ask me I have buy present I say no, since michelle say don't need so never buy, save money. (but I buy)
Went to Jurong had porridge for breakfast then go cousin house. Hmm, aunt give the presents to her then ah mah pass the red packets from my dad and ah gong and ah mah. Then I went and take the chocolate and give her. My two aunt like surprise. Eheheh. They say, "I thought you never buy anything for her?" Hahha. Quite envy her receive so many present just from the family! >. Stay there for few hours then get home about 5pm plus.

Okay photos is all mess up~

Random

I miss Casper. :| don't know what he doing.. Wonder if the owner treat him well. :X used to sayang him when i go over to pasir ris ah Gong house. Used to bath him. (he was the first dog I bathed) I want to have a dog but I have to reconsider. Must think of I need to take care and all that.

Hahah. Sorry. The dog is Casper. Look very ke lian when the fur is all wet. But to me it's funny! Hahah!!

Thursday.

Physics paper today.. It's difficult... Damn fail. I took quite a long time to finish. I finish just few seconds before the teacher says stop.. Gonna do badly hmm mcq must score well. Don't Like ms foo set paper..

Hmm, I like exams period, can go school late, can release school early then my allowance given by dad can save up! Now got $50 Le. Happy. Want to buy thing but must control! So must go home after exam ends! Hmm save until $100 then buy present for people I owe. First buy yours then buys hers then hers, then hers then hers, then hers then hers - so many people!!! $$$ sure gonna fly fly fly.

Sorry. Sorry that I might have acted weirdly or coldly. But please just let it be. I don't know how I am suppose to react or act. If I did make anyone angry please just forgive me. Maybe you might annoyed by me behaving/acting like this. But I'm trying to do that so I won't get close to people and I'll expect something from them and if I dint get what I wanted to get from them I'll be sad think all sorts of nonsense again. And my expectation is abit unreasonable. So just forgive me. So I can focus on studies and don't care the rest. So I'm like isolating myself from the rest. That's bad. Hmm, I'm just gonna try make myself okay with being alone. :]
if you talk to me, just talk as normal even if I make react weirdly or something.
I just wanna force myself to focus on studies now and nothing else. after Os it'll be like how it used to be, hmm if I remember how to be. Heheh.

Maybe just for a period I'm acting like this. That's possible as well. Hmm will see how I act lo. Hehe.

Monday

This is emo. Hehe. Emo-Li / emo-ly

Blogger app.

Ahh. I like the blogger app. Finally can out pictures! HAPPY* yay! Heheh. Glad I purposely waste time go download!

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Who am I? What am I?

Thinking over filled.

This is boring. My brain, my mind filled with things that will make me upset. It's filling it up again.. Like the past. I don't want history to repeat but my mind just want it to. Why? Fuck that shit.There are times that I'll be jealous. Of cause it's about friend but I can't say out. No one belongs to anyone but what for I jealous? *sigh* stupid brain.. Not being only jealous. Also thinking that ime useless, I'm unwanted, I dont belong. Once I'm left alone this feelings would come. Last year I don't really feel that because im always with my clique, with ZulikAh. But it's different this year. I dint belong with anyone in the class. This is why? I don't know. You know, sometimes I really want to help, want to be there for people but either is I don't have the ability to help or I'm not fit to help them or I'm not the one they want help from.- "No matter how hard you try to cheer her up she won't be cheered up because you're not the one that she wants to be cheered up by." correct? Oh well.Am I to full of myself? Thinking that I've given so much but yet I still end up being sad? Too thick skin? Okay.. I'm thinking too much. Maybe soon people will get sick of me?Fuck the thinking.I want to have a true friend that will always be there us there so difficult? If nit at least try to be there. Maybe I'm not fit to be? Okay this make me wanna cry.. shit. Not gonna cry.I'm going to try to be alone if possible and focus on studies.That's it. Bye